Work for Justice?

Abuse is funny thing. It seems that person abused continues to get abused even after the actual event or events have abuse phototaken place. It seems to me that when the abused has enough courage to reveal the horror of what happened to him/her, is it assumed that the abused is lying and that the abuser is innocent. Now I know there is a fraction, a much publicized sliver of folks who falsely accuse, who actually have created the situation for the rest of us. But I would venture to guess those that falsely accuse have some issue that they are seeking justice for, they just couldn’t get the right message through.

Other than the few previously mentioned, what does the abused have to gain by letting the “cat out of the bag?”

Peace of mind.

Which is something MasterCard and VISA cannot even come close to- though they market to those who are trying to find it. And that is a lot of us. I recall a bumper sticker that reads: “If you want Peace, work for Justice.” Well, I am not so sure about justice, but I need peace of mind.

I didn’t make everything up.
It isn’t all in my head.

But I have no one’s testimony but my own. And I have plenty to argue against me, and have been.

But I am grateful for the analogy the Lord has given me. If you have ever watched a boat go by, there is a wake in the water that follows it. A wake that travels longer and wider than the boat itself. If you missed the boat going by, but see the wake, you know that the boat has been by even though you missed that actual watercraft. The evidence of the wake proves the presence of the boat. That is how it is with me. No one saw any boats go by. But the wake of the sexual abuses that I have experienced is still rippling in the water to this day. So my conscious mind takes that as proof.

The mind is a powerful thing. As is the body. Or more specifically, body memory. If the world denies the abuse that the body and mind, conscious or subconscious, knows occurred, there is further abuse and the abused is further traumatized. So where is the justice and where is the peace? Not so sure about the justice for me at this point as I cannot afford any court battles, but I am looking for peace of mind.

I would venture to guess that those that don’t find it don’t stay on this earth for long. It is too painful. Where’s the justice there? But maybe they have peace. The God I know is merciful and Just. So I have to continue to trust that justice will eventually be done.

His Justice.
His Perfect Justice.
Which also brings His Peace.

Success.

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2 thoughts on “Work for Justice?

  1. I have a history of all types of abuse. I have been in therapy for a while and I can say I don’t believe you can have complete peace without forgiving the abusers. I still have nightmares but how I cope is my way of getting rid of the guilt and fear. The more I don’t let the abuse run my life the better I am. I still pray all the time for my abusers to get there’s. I can only hope GOD wil take care of them, I have won by staying alive and keeping my family safe. The abuse stops at my house. If that’s all I accompish that’s good for me. I believe you are so powerful you can make yourself feel at peace. You survived that is your power to do whatever you want. Don’t let them continue abusing you.

    1. Thanks Laura for your comments. I am working on praying for my abusers. Not so good at it though. I actually just forget. Not great to say but that would be what it is. Maybe because it seems so simple. Simple, yet profound. I am sorry for your nightmares. I have used Theophostic Prayer Ministry and Young Living’s Essential Oils Feelings Kit to help actually cleanse my cells of the trauma. I put the links in case you might like to read about them. http://www.youngliving.com/essential-oil-collections/Feelings and http://www.theophostic.com/

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